A lot of my close friends are waiting for me to write some more crazy shit! Not going to happen today but there are a few things I can blog about.
As I have gotten older I have realized that I think differently than most, the only thing that bothers me is that I can't figure out why?! I compare my thoughts to people looking through a glass. They are distorted, blury and don't "look" normal at all. I wish I could forgot things and not always think and process everything. When I have conversations I am always looking the room over and trying to get information that I don't really need. I do this shit in bars and restaurants so much that it is getting ridiculous. I claim to be very intelligent but why did I realize what I want to do in life at 28 instead of 21? Then again I learned a ton and made some friends on the way so maybe it was the right path.
I'm starting to ramble like I always do. On another note I am feeling good lately. I'm coming to gribs with my crazy ass brain and thoughts. I have been thinking that I need to but a lot of things and people behind me. I guess you have to let people go that you have cared about. Hell, some people think I am a complete asshole and that I have a drinking problem and that I am heartless. Well I can be the biggest asshole you ever want to meet and when i drink it is usually a problem and my heart is huge but I don't share it with many people. While I am at it I am going to go ahead and throw myself under the bus.
I pride myself on being honest with my friends and for the most part in general. So what I am about to write is probably a bad idea but fuck it. I once had a girl ask me how many people have you slept with? Normally I would say none of your damn business but this girl is different so I said "Don't ask me a question that you don't want to know the answer to." That conversation ended quickly. With that being said something happened again yesterday that pissed me off. A guy that I know told a female that I know to stay away from me because I was bad news. He is a damn pansy for saying that but I am going to end all this shit right now. I have no clue how many women i have been with. It is a lot and no it isn't cool and yes it has caused me problems. Not physical or health problems (maybe a pulled muscle) if you're thiking that. It has gave me a reputation that I don't want anymore. If you are a female and you have a problem with that I understand, no biggie.
I am done for today, as always feel free to judge! One last thing just to entertain. If you go out in Southend you may want to ask me about any female you meet before you go there. I probably know her middle name...
